Today I stopped for a moment, and appreciated everything and everyone that has left a positive impact on me.
I know that things are not always smooth-flowing, and I know that everyone is bound to face some troubles here and there. I know that sometimes I can be on the verge of losing hope; so tired of all the failures accumulated within such a short period of time. We all want the things we don’t have, but we forget to be appreciative of the things that we do have. We are unhappy because of events that we deem as failures, but we don’t bother to recall our successes, regardless how seemingly inconspicuous they appear to be. We have yardsticks for ourselves to gauge our level of happiness so that we remain hopeful for a better future, and sometimes, we inevitably fail to achieve what we initially intended to.
Today, I want to remind myself to be thankful for everything that I currently have.
I have a blog that has been alive for the 6th year and counting, and I think that’s pretty impressive seeing how the writing culture is slowly but surely diminishing. Good English is something that I try (very hard) to achieve in every single post, alongside content that I hope do not come off as too mundane. Everything on this humble blog started off as daily journal-like entries, before it took on a much more emotional and personal turn as I gradually developed my writing style. I’ve received compliments on my posts and every single one of them means a great deal to me; without them finding the motivation to continue writing would be difficult. Writing has found me my University course, my current part-time job, and many great past opportunities that has broadened my perspective on the world around me. Language has always been very personal to me, the art of the millions of combinations and permutations of 26 alphabets, together with the usage of effective punctuation, can get almost every single thing imaginable done. For that, I am grateful for being fluent in my language, for all the hard work put into learning and the fruit that I have borne out of it.
I have people that I can turn to whenever things are not going well. Society is judgmental and not always accepting of individual quirks, therefore making society arguably cruel. I have a select group of people that I can talk to regarding almost any matter on mind, to ease my tired and confused mind of the daily vicissitudes of life. Nobody is perfect, and I may have ticked them off here and there and vice versa, but at the end of the day I want to keep them close to my heart. I especially cherish the fact that we may not talk every single day, but when we do, it feels just as personal and heartfelt.
I have a (somewhat) job, that gives me emotional fulfilment from helping others in something I’m good at, alongside building better interpersonal relationships with people from all walks of life. Some people work long hours for something they don’t enjoy, but I am blessed to be working relatively shorter hours for something that I actually love doing. For that, I am blessed that my job does not feel like a chore.
I just want to feel hopeful today, for all the good things that have happened and the good things that will eventually be soon to come. I am a firm believer in fate and I trust that if I do the right things on my end, good things will naturally come my way. I want to rid the negativity for a while that has been accumulating on this blog, and to hopefully shine some positivity into this rather lethargic mindset of mine.
And so, my WhatsApp messages, shall not bother me today.
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