I dare not say that I have figured it all out, figured you all out, because I’m not ready to.
But, I will say that I have learnt a lot about you, from you, through you, in a brand new perspective I have never been exposed to previously. I have learnt much from the words you said, from the actions you made, but I’ve learnt more from you when you go for days without exchanging a single word.
I’ve learnt not to expect things from you, to take you as you are and your random desires to do certain things as you wish. I’ve learnt not to expect a reply from you even when I think that what I said was interesting, or to expect 48-hour hiatuses simply because you do as you wish. I’ve learnt to expect the unexpected, to accept the previously unaccepted and to be patient and quiet when I’m usually hasty and loud; to listen when you are talking and even more so when you are not, to be aware of your actions and read between the lines when you are idle.
It is pretty much unequivocal that you like to do things your way, and your way only. You are egotistical and a person chary of compliments, one without much words upfront but buries plenty of thoughts beneath your skin.
It’s been about 8 months now and things have changed along the way; lifestyle, routine, upcoming prospects and future plans. I miss the times of the past where things were easier and much more carefree. I regret the minor details that I had previously not bothered to compensate. If I may say, I’ve grown quite a bit mentally; the hard way unfortunately, but grown I have nonetheless. I’m glad that I’m able to maintain my cool for longer periods of time, and to look at situations in a more matured way.
To you, you have always surprised me; both in terms of teaching me new things about yourself, as well as brand new things about myself. Things I never thought I would learn, I have learnt it in a brand new, eye-opening experience from you.
Listen.
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