Dearest,
By the time you are reading this we would have graduated, and I would be out of your life. We will not meet up again, and I should hope that we never see each other again.
I have had the time of my life with you, in this short period of time. You have given me many reasons to smile, and equally as many to cry. You have given me strength, and a weakness I never expected to have. You have taught me kindness, self-control, and the painful art of letting go what is not yours; the rule “if you love someone, let them go; if they return to you then they are yours to keep forever”.
At this point in time I am not even sure if I want this letter to be read by you. I may end up stuffing this letter under my bed and forgetting about it until one day a long time later when I stumble across this while cleaning my room. But I felt a strong need to pen down these emotions I am currently experiencing that are flowing like water, and so I will write this nonetheless regardless if it gets read by you. And I don’t think you would want to read this letter.
The days fly by rapidly and I know one day I will pack my heart up and let it go. I intend to go quietly, like a silent night breeze; without trace, disturbance, nor guilt. But I guess that I will fail, because something is telling me that you will find out about this secret burden I am holding deep within. But if that is the case, I am ready to be honest and to be brave, and I hope that of you just the same.
This is but a passing phase in life—a torrent of strong emotions that closely follow a devastating fall. I know this will be one of the last times I will ever see you again, and will you believe me but I am ready to go; I am ready to say yet another goodbye.
I hope you will find happiness in every corner of your life, and strength to overcome your difficulties. I hope you will stay true to yourself, find the things and hopefully the person that you truly love. And above all, I hope you find the courage to face your fears, and to find the words you have never dared to say. When you have accomplished all of these, I will not be there to congratulate you, but I have already sent my blessings way ahead into the future for you—and I hope they will reach you then.
Goodbye.
Love,
F
(And indeed, this letter was never sent to the intended recipient—I had ended up shoving it under my bed. I found this letter while cleaning my room more than a year later from the date of writing it.)
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